I once was lost but now I'm found

it's almost 2, and i can't sleep because of kpfma. they had a damn fight again. i'm so fed up with it. but i love them so much, i can't leave them.

today. has not been a very good day > i'm tired, pissed and hungry. and i still have a headache ):

i'm so stressedddddddd ): kpop music fest tickets...so damn stressed >

the time i needed you most, you weren't there. i wanted to tell you all of my problems, but you never had time to listen. i could never tell you everything i felt. when i needed you most, you weren't there for me. so now i only trust God. and God alone.

i get so paranoid when i do things. i think, what if they get annoyed at me...what if they hate me like they dislike this other person... what if they don't want to be my friends. i try my best to please them, yet i have no idea if what i'm doing is what they want me to do >

my friend linked me to the quiet place today. it was nice. i felt quite relaxed. stressfree.

can't even have one day of peace. telling them to shut up doesn't work. this is the only reason why i hate HATE going home. a home is a place whiere i can fine comfort right? why don't i find comfort when i'm at home then? so damn annoyed at them.

哎呀。点解今年同上年一模一样。一点都没变。够没啊，好烦啊。

aishh. it hasn't been a particularly good day. especially when my sister is being so frkn annoying. i had a real urge to swear today. but i kept it in. isdlgjlhdfJjhzd. i'm so pissed. i'm so tired. if everyday is gonna be like this, i'm gonna move out as quickly as possible.argh. jaskalbJkazbfsBvzcjkasdhSGHfbkVJDVJVvbjdvBHbjhfvbjhvbjkfbjkdfjf.