I once was lost but now I'm found

I enjoyed my day with the family, even though there were some arguments here and there. But as soon as I come back from hanging out with church buddies, there's a dispute over money! Why can't you just let it go? Why is there alwayssss an argument? WHY is money such a big deal? So sick of it. It disgusts me to see people getting worked up about stupid things like money. Just let it go. :(

Went to the GP today upon request by the nurses in the Adolescent medicine department while I was booking my gyno. I guess a bit of an update is necessary. It seems there had been this benign fibroid tumour in my uterus that I never knew about because no-one explained the results of my previous ultrasound. Which explains the excessive bleeding and the immense pain during menstruation.  (It sounds worse than it is, but it's actually quite common in women and it shrinks after menopause.) BUT, doesn't explain the other pain. (blagh, upon my own research, it's not common at all for women under the age of 20...) That was basically it. One problem solved, so praise God :)

Trying so hard to let go. Why is it so difficult? Why is it so painful? We're not even in a relationship. I can't even look at you. How do I let go knowing that my heart still beats for you?

阿媽又罵我沒用，一點事情也做不好。又罵我整天都不溫習，只會花錢。 我不是習慣了嗎？不是已經對這些麻痹了嗎？那為什麽我還在想，還覺得傷心？ 每一次都選我不舒服的時候罵我。開心了嗎？