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Ahh so tired. Physically and mentally. School has been taking a toll on me- especially with trials and Jap speaking. I'm definitely not feeling ready for anything and I'm going to need a lot of strength to come through it. And I know this strength won't come from me.

A "short" update

Huh, it's been quite a while since I've posted here. Trials are creeping closer and closer, and you can't say I'm not stressed. But at the same time I haven't been the most productive person...in fact, I must say I'm very lazy. Less than 2 weeks til trials and I'm sitting here writing a blog. Here's how I've been going. All the drama's died down since last time, thankfully. I'm learning to let it go and not let it bother me as much. At the moment it seems that my parents are keeping a close watch on my sister, and God willing, it won't happen again. In terms of Barney, I can't say I don't have feelings towards him anymore, but it has been better. I guess I'm able to be comfortable around him again. My pain has returned, but what can I do. My menstrual cycle is currently terrible- I think I've bled for almost a month now. The pain is as usual, a pain- especially to manage because my meds haven't been of use lately....

Friendships

I joke about this all the time, but I actually find it really hard to make friends- more specifically long lasting friends. The first meeting is good, but as the relationship deepens, and I run out of things to say other than the good ol' "how was your week/day", it just gets awkward. And so, me and friendships that last don't mix well, and I'm very blessed to actually have these friends.

Burdens

Hey Dad, How is it possible that you can take on the burdens of the world? I can barely handle the few around me. And I need you to get me through this because I'm going to crash and fall without you. I'm crumbling under the pressure of having to get a certain ATAR. I'm torn by burdens of my sister's behaviour. I'm being crushed as I try with all my might to let go of a person. I need you.