The pain is keeping me up and I'm left in my own world to think. Years since I've had pain, and it's still not really any easier to deal/bear with. I continue to dislike that pain can immobilise me and keep me up at night. I dislike that it's such a big part of my life, and that it could possibly follow me to my grave. The thought of being in pain for the rest of my life scares me so much. God, I'm struggling. Help.