Exams are over, and I still don't feel relaxed. Perhaps it hasn't fully dawned on me that I've finished the semester. It feels like I've been running for so long, I haven't worked out that I can stop again and take a break. Father, I'm exhausted.
This video hit very close to home for me because basically all of those phrases in the first part of the video are phrases that constantly run through my head. The second half of the video contains phrases that I find very difficult to believe and take on for myself. But because of Christ, I can be assured that I am loved, even if I don't always feel that way. Dad, please help me to throw away the insecurities I possess, and trust in you with all my heart, all my mind and all my soul.
I'm finding it very difficult to cope with everything. It's all very overwhelming, and emotionally and physically draining. But here's the problem, in my mind there's is nothing imminent that I need to worry about except for exams. I cannot seem to figure out what this "everything" is, because the only stressful thing occurring in my life right now is exams. So why am I stressed? What is draining me? Because if it's just exams, I am definitely over-stressing.
Having the right intentions is an implication that repeats itself throughout a lot of Scripture. I've been slack in evaluating these intentions and ensuring that I'm not doing things for my own gain or for myself to look good in front of others. Where does my pride lie? What am I doing for my own selfish gain? How can I be working to bring glory to God? ( Reflections on Matthew 6:1-4 )
"For I tell you, unless your righteousness exceeds that of the scribes and Pharisees, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." - Matthew 5:20 Reminded of the high standards of God when it comes to entering his kingdom, but also his grace in allowing me a place because He sent Jesus to make me righteous. Lift His name up high, for in your rebellion, he brought you close. His grace and mercy you have not deserved. His love and kindness knows no end.