I once was lost but now I'm found

Another day of intense pain, another day of faltering in my trust in God. In times of pain, my mind is clouded by the lies Satan tells me, i.e. my pain defines me; there is no hope, God doesn't heal. But I know it's not true.  CHRIST defines me - my true identity is in Him. There IS hope.  God DOES heal - just not now. Annie,  Never forget that despite the bleakness of the future, and the uncertainty of whether God will take away the pain in this life, God is faithful, and God has a purpose for the pain. His purposes may not be clear now but trust Him. Look forward to the day He makes all things new.

Dear mum, Why is my prospects of having kids such an issue for you? Why can you not accept it? Why do you need to reiterate that it’s not that I “can’t”? Why do you make it seem like I am less valuable as a person just because I can’t have kids like a normal human being?

The sorrow and grief-stricken lamentation of Job in this chapter very much mirrors the darkness I feel, especially in times of severe pain and anxiety. It's good to know and remember that emotions portrayed in the Bible are real, and I can take comfort in knowing that the Christian life is no rainbows and happiness, but God knows our pain and suffering. There is good purpose, one that brings Him glory. So, trust God. 

Reflecting on contentment this morning, I was struck by how easy I find it to complain and grumble about life. Even just looking through this blog, most of the posts consist of me complaining about some aspect of my life. God is so good, and yet I so often forget to thank Him for all the good things he gives. Be content! God is good always - even in weakness and suffering.