I once was lost but now I'm found

You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.  - Psalm 16:11 Lord God, In the midst of the turmoil and darkness in my heart, help me stand in your presence and show me the multitude of things you have blessed me with. Remind me of the many things I can rejoice in, and most importantly, remind me of your amazing grace. 

God, make it stop. Please.  It hurts too much. 

Annie, I know the pain is hard to bear in this very moment, and it seems like the world is crumbling in because of it. I know it feels like this will never end and that God has not heard your cries for help. I know you feel helpless, hopeless and alone. I know it hurts a whole lot, and however much you wish it were gone, it just won’t go away. I know the pain has made you wish that life would end in this very moment so it would all just stop. But Annie, God hears you. He loves you, and knows just how painful it is. He is weeping with you as you lay here, squirming and crying in pain. No-one knows better the pain you are feeling but Christ himself who endured the painful reality of death on the cross, bearing all of your sin and guilt - bearing all of God’s wrath. Never forget this reality. And guess what, it didn’t end in suffering - He rose! Nothing compares to the hope this brings - hope of resurrection with Christ, a new creation! So even though this pain seems like it’ll last fo...

Last week felt very long, and neverending. In much of the week, I was unmotivated, wanting to curl up into a ball, and just avoid the world and the people in it. I still feel that way. It feels like I'm in a dark, dark tunnel, surrounded by voices of self-doubt/loathing, and I can't see the light at the end. I'm scared. But the Lord Jesus Christ will sustain me to the end. There is no need to fear the darkness, for you are not alone. God's spirit will guide your paths to the glory soon to be revealed to you. Be still, wait patiently, and know the God is God. God, who shines light into the darkness. God, who has redeemed you and made you His child. Fear not, Annie!