i think first of all, i'd like to address to david. (why am i being so formal LOL) David, thanks so much for you prayers, and care, before and while i was away ^_^ i really appreciate it. :) THANKS BRO! moving on to what this blog really is about. i think, after coming back from korea, the sense of longing for company grew stronger. i feel like i want someone i can spend my life with, and someone who will be there throughout the rest of my life. (aka, a boyfriend/husband) i know, there are downsides to these things, but i can't help myself to not think about it. especially seeing all these couples around, it makes me long for an other half even more. i want someone who can accept me for my faults and just love me, no matter what. it makes me scared to think that no-one would want me because i'm messy, can't do house chores and even infertile. despite all this, i know God has someone planned for my future. whoever it may be, i know God has chosen the right person.