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ANNOYED.


befor i practice piano everyday...my parents are like...PRACTICE. what's worse is when my dad says it.
then after piano lessons on sunday. i get lectured by my dad. he's like...you don't practice enough...etc. always critisising me. and looking down on me :( when he says "you take piano as a burden...it should be for leisure" but he doesn't know how i feel when he does this. when he says that in my head i think..."if it wasn't for you an mum always making me practice and critisising me, i wouldn't take it as burden. :( WHY DON'T MY PARENTS CARE. WHY AM I ALWAYS CRITISIZED BY MY FAMILY. i think my only true family member is my brother. but someday. someday. he will also look down on me. he will.

:(
if only i had the courage to do what i want. but i don't. no courage at all. life is gay. especially when your family critisises you. an when you love someone who doesn't love you :( <3

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