I once was lost but now I'm found

God commanded us to walk in love. and God is love. so therefore, we walk in God.God has loved us from the very beginning, but do we love him? that's a question to ponder about.God loved us so much, he sacrificed his son. what have we sacrificed for God? God never neglects us, yet we neglect him. God doesn't ever complain, so we don't have the right to nag to him. we don't have the right to say that he's bad and ask why something bad happens to us. because he isn't. he never did it to you, so why do it to him. God loves us so dearly, and yet his only requirements for us is to love one another, and walk in love. this past year, i've really learnt a lot about God, and have really bonded a lot more with God. but at the same time, i still neglect God, forget that he's there for me. through reading 1, 2 &3 John, i've learnt to walk in love, and never to neglect God. EVER. 2 John 1:6 "And this is love; that we walk in obedience to his commands...

Why is it always me that gets the blame, me who has to suffer The pain, me who has to take the consequences, me who has all the responsibility, me who has to come home to an unreasonable mum and sister. Why me? Why am i the one who my parents expect highly of? Why is it me who's always left out, me who has to seem like i don't care about things, me who has to strive for the best. Why am i the only family member that my parents won't care about. I don't liks this. I wanna be dead. I wanna get shot. I hate life. 2010 is shit. I want to end everything. I want time to go back to when i was a kid with no burdens and just stop time. No one in mh family knows that i secretly cry under my covers. They don't understand me. They don't even know the actual me. They don't know what i go through. They don't know what i like, what i hate. I strive for the best to get their attention, and yet they don't even care. I hate my family.

can't take this anymore. fudge. might as well end life. URGH. "never let go of something you love" "sometimes letting go is the best option" what am i supposed to do ): o-o" my close sister and brother in christ are somehow fighting >.> aishhhh. i don't know what happened. but my sis hasn't been coming to church and my bro is full raging ><" what to do. >< stressssssss. it's like...end of my exams. and i'm still stressingggggg. i really can't relax. you were right bro ): i'm not relaxed. stomach painnnnn. >.> MRI on mondayyy. D: brighter side. ... B2ST. LIGHTS GO ON AGAIN. <3 china soon. (: dark side. ... shit life. problems flying. brain is dying. i don't have a brain to begin with. should just go an die. not worthy of life. why was i born to begin with? bev's question. love is strange. painful. happy. confusing. stressful. all these different emotions mixed tog...