I once was lost but now I'm found

Typing this with the bigfest headache I've ever had. It's killing me!!! anyway. Straight to the point. It feels as though every time I open my mouth, something disgusting will come out. Like...gossip, or words I haven't processed before speaking, thus hurting people, or just those disgusting words. Oh and also self-centered words. I don't want to turn out like that. Dad? What are you trying to tell me in this trial? What are you teaching me? I don't feel that I can open my mouth without hurting people. Also... My thoughts. Self-centered thoughts. I don't even know what's going on...it's messed up in there. "She feels distant" "She doesn't love me" "I'm unimportant" "What if she hates me?" Everything is me me me. I HATE ITTTT. IT'S SO SELF-CENTERED. GAHH. It's back. The loneliness. I don't want it. I hate it. It feels horrible. I have God. I have an amazing Father. WHY? What are you tell...

There's this Christian band called Luminate . They have caught my attention greatly. Their lyrics...I like them. You're best friends with the word regret You're afraid that your life's been wasted So why hope if it's only gonna let you down? You don't think people really change You're a mess and you'll always be the same And you doubt if you'll ever get it turned around So (I know) you've been running, searching for something But you're looking in a place you don't belong But it's never to late, you can't outrun grace No, Mercy doesn't care what you've done Come Home Come Home God, I'm coming home.

The Testing from Father to Son We must be tested by God, to show that we have genuine faith in God. When there are trials, whether you stand or fall, will show whether you're following God of not. Where do you stand? The storm of life happening to Isaac. (v1)  Gerar; outskirts of Canaan (Next to Egypt) 1. Faith from Abraham to Isaac: What to do when there's famine? 2. Same but different test: Gen 12, 20 3. Psalm 116:16 O Lord , truly I am your servant; I am your servant, the son of your maidservant; you have freed me from my chains. [Like father, like son] God wants these characteristics, but the son needs to shine like stars, and stand out, not under the shadow of someone else. God's Promise Recalled The promise repeated v3-5 "I will bless you" -v4 because Abraham obeyed, and kept God's commands, decrees and laws. Test #1 The promise required. v2-3 "Do not go down to Egypt!" Stay! because God Almighty said so. Christian Education Begi...

You know, God is really gracious to me. Well, He's gracious to everyone. Like, I don't know about you, but it's not everyday a baby is saved from death. Not everyone has amazing brothers and sisters. God had me experience all sorts of things in life, whether it be having surgery several times, living with a disabled sibling, even just knowing Him is something I'm grateful for. I don't know where I'd be without him. It's so amazing. HE'S so amazing. I'm very grateful for God's grace.

WOW. just...wow. God is so amazing. He is crazy awesome. Just when I thought that there'd be no hope, God did the most amazing thing and brought her to Christ. WOW. I hope that God continues to 'toast' her with His amazing-ness. AMAZING.

Do you want to be a winner? The Race of Life 1 Corinthians 9:24-25 The rules of the race 1. Do you not know? 2. All runners run 3. Only one gets the prize 4. Run in such a way to get a prize 5. Everyone who competes goes into strict training 6. They do it to get a crown that will not last 7. We do it to get a crown that will last forever What race are you running? Race of life: Rich young man = young athlete? He achieved many medallions. Bur he knew what he achieved wouldn't last. He heard about Jesus and went to him: v17 "Good teacher," he asked, " what must I do to inherit eternal life?" 3 Impressive Things: 1. He knew that what he has was unsatisfactory 2.He decided to try out Jesus 3. To his surprise, Jesus challenged him. (v18) Do you know who I am? Why ask me? Be careful who you ask and where you look for answers. Jesus' answer: 2 Challenges #1 "You know the commandments..." ...So do it! Why do people keep doing thin...

WOW. I haven't updated in a while, except for sermons. LOL Allow me to explain my absence. Common excuse, but I'm busy. Yes. I am a student... a busy one in fact. Assignments, Tutoring, Homework, Church(though I love church). All these things/commitments have been taking my time away. bottom line is that I'm busy. Now that I've decided to procrastinate, allow me to rant. Subject selection night is tomorrow. I've been caught in a HUGE dilemma. 3 sciences...maybe. 2 languages...maybe. religion...maybe. I JUST CAN'T PICK. So far, what I've decided on; Advanced English, Maths Ext.1, Biology, Chemistry & Japanese. MISSING ONE UNIT. :/ Don't know what to doooooo. God, help? Moving on. Went over to Silas' place to get him to help me with english. He got too heated with the cohort and started to shout. But then he realised he was scaring me. LOL But yeah. It's good to have a brother helping me with homework. :3 I'm tired. I thin...

Jonah on the L plate in mission Scene 1; Catch me if you can Scene 2; I don't care Scene 3; Big fish swallows Jonah What fish can swallow Jonah? Tuna. What's so special about Jonah? Key idea of the book of Jonah. V17. it was GOD WHO ARRANGED the fish to swallow Jonah One purpose; Mission Lesson 1 God hasn't ignored them Those pople that Jonah has ignoree, God hasn't ignored them. v1-2 The word of the Lord came to Jonah son of Amittai: "Go to the great city of Nineveh and preach against it, because its wickedness has come up before me." We are like Jonah, we ignore those who are not out own people. Do you think God has forgotten them? Lesson 2 Please don't run away from God's mission. We need strategies in mission. Jonah has effective strategies to avoid mission. v3-4 Today, we also have strategies to avoid mission. -I won't want to see. -I don't want to hear. -Let's not talk about mission today. -Yes, Lord, please se...

lFinding a good person doesn't mean a godly marriage. We neee a greater emphasis upon 'being the right partner' rather than 'finding the right partner'. The Servant Commissioned (v3-4) *Highlight of this chapter v7: Abraham's actions weee based on revelation. In addition, Abraham instructed his servant to seek out a wife for him son with the assurance that God give diving guidance. -example of faith The Search Conducted v12. O Lord, God of my master Abraham, give me success today, and show kindness to my master Abraham. The plan which this servant devised testitifies his wisdom and maturity. (v14) Rebekah was indeed the right person. Securing Parental Consent v50-51 "This is from the Lord" - can't do.anything about it. The Return Isaac had been in the fiels as the evening hours apporached. (v63) As he lifted his eyes, he saw the caravan approaching. v66- Then the servant told Isaac all he had done. Rebekah was God's perfect gi...

Wow, I haven't blogged ALL week. That's amazing. Here's a re-cap. Basically, I've been so busy with Korean exchange students, I haven't had time to blog. My buddy is so quiet...we don't talk much. ;-; BUT. Aside from that, I'm reallh glad she made friends. She barely knew anyone from the trip, an now she's grown close to a few~ I'm so glad!! I'm also glad that she's been having heaps of fun :3 Moving along. Tomorrow's friday...wow. I'm pretty stressed over J-club, but, God has it all under control. I'm tired. Should go to bed. yeh, good idea. Good night ^_^