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Yearning.

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By Annie

Sudden realisation as to how much I yearn for love. It's the cause of the insecurity I feel right?
Empty 'I love you' phrases don't seem to satisfy me.
Everytime I shout 'you love me', it's only because I want them to say yes.

Mum and dad don't look like they love me. Mum always seems annoyed, dad seems too busy to care an when he does, he only says I'm useless. However much I know they love me, it doesn't satisfy me.

I know God loves me. That I definitely know. He loves me so much He sent his son to die for me. But I don't feel close to Him at all. He's like a distant father. He loves me from a distant. I'm okay with that.

I just want to feel loved and cared for.
But I'm not feeling it. Not with friends, not with family. :/

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