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2012

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By Annie

And here is when 2012 draws to a close and I recap.
It's been a strange year. The first quarter, it was like I was on a high. Back when kpop still mattered and was part of the temporary cheer up method. In which, God mattered, but kpop seemed bigger.
I ran away from home this year? Feels like yonks ago.
Second quarter:
When friendships mattered a lot and I was blinded by the fact that I wasn't loved, that the world would end because my friend stopped talking to me. When I really started to feel lonely. When I wanted the attention from people, rather than focusing on pleasing God and being His servant.
Third quarter:
When God really begins to take over. When sin really begin to crawl out and show itself. When insecurity really begins to kick in. When I find no satisfaction in 'I love you' When people drift away as I am left to deal with this 'alone'. And I'm still seeking approval of man rather than God. I wanted love. No, I'm not okay.
Final quarter:
And to sum it all up, life just sucks. Daddy, take me home. *whine whine whine* [insert absolute confusion here] BUT WAIT. YAY GOD! Keep holding on, Annie. God will pull you through.

And there you see a huge avalanche of problems come at me as the year draws to a close. Well, hello 2013.

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