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Can't find the right word to describe what I feel.

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By Annie
Mum came in with dad's phone asking for help, wanting to find his contacts and who he's contacted recently. I can tell that she is insecure. I can tell. Being able to decipher her intentions worries me. Last time mum was insecure, it led to something I don't want to remember.
It hurts to see that my mum doesn't trust dad fully. It hurts knowing that something is making her feel this way.
What's happening to the family? Screw that. What family...?
I don't know what to think anymore. I don't know how to react. I don't know how to help.
What's happening...
Dad, please be the centre of this family. Please...take away any feelings of insecurity mum has and teach her trust. Show me what I can do and give me the courage to do it. Amen.

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