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Conflicting Perspectives

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By Annie

No, the title isn't a deliberate reference to our module C topic.
Anyway, my parents and I have very different perspectives on the HSC snd how I should go about studying.
Both mum and dad want me to stop spending so much time at church and prioritise study instead. They want me to drop serving roles and stop joining H2O- basically meaning they only want me at church for sunday service and possibly Cornerstone.
I thoroughly disagree with this. I wish they would understand that my only form of relaxation and rest is spending time with the bros and sis' that I love, doing the things that are most important- serving and worshipping God. I wish they would be able to see that even though my studies are important to me, God is so much greater. His will for me matters a whole lot more that my studies.
But as much as I try to communicate this, they don't understand my point of view.

It's not just this. My parents continuously hurt me with their words. "You're always out, why don't you study?" "死蠢“ "沒用“ “點解你那麽笨“ "I hate you the most."
I don't want to believe it. But having it drummed into my ears day by day makes it difficult.
It's like they don't care. It's like I'm the neglected child.

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