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Jealous feelings

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By Annie
I've come to the realisation that I get jealous easily, especially when it comes to academics. I mean, every time I work really hard on something but don't do so well, I am a little disappointed. But when I see that others who didn't work as hard, or didn't study get a better mark than me, I immediately become even more disappointed than I originally was. In my mind, I resent them because they did better even though they didn't study, or I helped them with editing the essay.
AND I HATE THIS FEELING. It's not right, and definitely not glorifying to God.
I need help.

Dad, I'm sorry for feeling resentment towards these things. Over and over again I have committed wrong in your eyes and now I come before you in repentance knowing that only you can give me peace. I need you to help me to rid myself of all jealousy and live a life holy and pleasing to you. Teach me to follow the example of Christ - loving others in all circumstances. Teach me to be content with all I have knowing that it is you who has given it to me. Thank you for you goodness and kindness. Teach me to reflect your love onto others. Amen.

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