I once was lost but now I'm found

In weakness, God’s strength prevails. Take heart! 

I’ve always found it hard to admit that I’m not doing ok. I think it’s because admitting I’m not ok means I’m weak, and need help. I’m not ok, means I can’t pick myself up anymore.  But today I’m admitting it. I’m not ok.  From the chronic pain, to the panic attacks, I want to end it all.  I can’t do this anymore.  God, I know you are watching over me, help. Reveal to me how you are using this for your glory. 

My stress levels have been on the rise and I’ve had 1 panic attack a day for the last 3 days. I’ve noticed that recently in order to help cope with my uneasiness/stress, I’ve been digging my nails into my skin, to the point that I have small scars on my hands. God please help to ease my stress, relax my soul, and help me put my trust in you. Help me to love the body you’ve given me, not to bring it harm.

So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. - 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 In a time where thoughts consist of just wanting it all to end and “I can’t do this anymore”, cling tightly to God’s promises. He is faithful.