There is this creeping uncomfortable feeling in my chest. It makes me uneasy, scared even. It comes with a fuzzy sensation in my head, like a millions thoughts running, zipping like ants in their maze of an anthill. That confusion you feel looking at a map of Tokyo’s subway system. It puts my body into overdrive, my heart racing, my breathing shallow, my head pounding. I am afraid. I cannot think clearly. Just breathe. For goodness sakes breathe. In through your nose, out through your mouth. Slow deep breaths. You don’t need to feel anxious, your father in heaven has got you. He will never forsake you. You are his beloved child, the one he sent His son down to die for. Breathe, he cares for you. You are not alone, you don’t need to be afraid. I know you’re exhausted, but you don’t need to keep running. God will carry you through the storm, he will give you peace. Trust him!
Huh, it's been quite a while since I've posted here. Trials are creeping closer and closer, and you can't say I'm not stressed. But at the same time I haven't been the most productive person...in fact, I must say I'm very lazy. Less than 2 weeks til trials and I'm sitting here writing a blog. Here's how I've been going. All the drama's died down since last time, thankfully. I'm learning to let it go and not let it bother me as much. At the moment it seems that my parents are keeping a close watch on my sister, and God willing, it won't happen again. In terms of Barney, I can't say I don't have feelings towards him anymore, but it has been better. I guess I'm able to be comfortable around him again. My pain has returned, but what can I do. My menstrual cycle is currently terrible- I think I've bled for almost a month now. The pain is as usual, a pain- especially to manage because my meds haven't been of use lately....
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