I am always desperately trying to control the things I can’t control. How do I pick the easiest way out, the job with the highest possibility of success? Yet there has never been a guarantee, and frankly I cannot control that. Why do I not just trust God? Why am I so anxious, always seeking control when I know that there is one in control whose knowledge surpasses the present. Abraham didn’t waver in unbelief in the promises of God even when all the circumstances were pointing to failure, impossibility. So why do I not just let God work it all out? Will I ever find peace?
Huh, it's been quite a while since I've posted here. Trials are creeping closer and closer, and you can't say I'm not stressed. But at the same time I haven't been the most productive person...in fact, I must say I'm very lazy. Less than 2 weeks til trials and I'm sitting here writing a blog. Here's how I've been going. All the drama's died down since last time, thankfully. I'm learning to let it go and not let it bother me as much. At the moment it seems that my parents are keeping a close watch on my sister, and God willing, it won't happen again. In terms of Barney, I can't say I don't have feelings towards him anymore, but it has been better. I guess I'm able to be comfortable around him again. My pain has returned, but what can I do. My menstrual cycle is currently terrible- I think I've bled for almost a month now. The pain is as usual, a pain- especially to manage because my meds haven't been of use lately....
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