I once was lost but now I'm found

EETTTOOOO. hmmm...as usual, my saturday was boring. with all these darn classes to attend to. but...LIVE WITH IT ANNIE. THAT'S HOW YOUR LIFE WAS SET OUT. why is it that God wants us to go through all these hardships...why is it that he set out our life this way...? when i was born, i had hirschsprungs disease. my brother too. did God have to make us to be 1:5000 children to get this disease? was it nessecary for us to have that disease? there's soooooo many questions i want to ask...but i'm too scared to ask anyone. anywayss... boring days~ WISH IT WAS HOLIS! then i could go out and all... wahhhhh~ but now...PRESSURE. urgh urgh. ARGHHHHHHHHHH. i'm not talking about him on this blog anymore~ there's nothing to talk about. i got over him...i think. HOPEFULLY~ (: nothing to blab. XD TIFFANYYY! GANBATTE!! I'LL PRAY FOR YOU AH~ <3

SORRY TIM! i can't believe i egged/floured someone today! okay~ so i did the flouring...but still!!!!! ==" worst thing i've ever done to someone in my life. ==" SORRY TIM! >< athletics today XD it was fun! bludged the WHOLE day ;) photos too ;)  it was TOTALLY awesomee xD can't wait for next time (: hmm... anyways~ library topic. we didn't really go to the library but instead the park... Ying and her group were there and they were playing with eggs and whipped cream and flour... then...Ying gave some eggs and flour to us to throw @ a person...so we decided to throw @ tim... we chased him around...and angiee threw. unluckily for tim...it landed onto his shirt~ after a few more eggs, he got super messed up, so we decided to go back to the lib to get him cleaned up...but we didn't go in the end xD then...adam,eddie&mike came...with a  pole... we sprayed water on tim to get him clean and he changed his shirt int his sports uniform cu...

wahh~ sorry folks. forgot to blog yesterday xD urgh. athletics carnival tomorrow :( not cool ok. so i've gotten over him? no big deal nows? can act normal? maybe not VERY normal. but normal.  omg. gillette shaving cream as tech teacher todays. :( sooooo annoying. but i made a friendship bracelet XD period 2 was funn XD it was! honestly! maths (: it was chaotic XD we were listening to music while doing equations. but of course..with shock&mystery on, there's no way we can concentrate. urgh. i failed jap listening test! 22 1/2 out of 25! ): all the rest were full marks! except for that one :( NOOOOOO. jap is important to me too!  anyways. ANNIE HA! GANBATTE!  postman pat's cat =="

YO. urgh. postman pat's cat is such a bitch. ==" always trying to get attention. anyways....my day wasn't so bad~ p.1 was tech (Y) p.2 was engrish with the "hung-over" mr bean...aka carrot man...but luckily it was replaced my speaker's cup (: p.3 was living skills...bumming around (: hachiko(Y) soooooo sad! p.4 was maths ==" OMG. that bitch of a teacher! farrout! went to gary's place todays (: as interesting... the best bit was afterwards ;) freebies @ maccas! LOL. my friend who works there gave us free icecream and french fries...bacon cheeseburger was $2...such a bargain (Y) TY YAO-WEI! <3

CHUDAY. no. today. was an ordinary day. train: came 2 mins early. but late train came 10 mis late. School: nearly late. ==" P.1: science with hitman. science is becoming bludgy. microscopes are interesting ;D P.2: maths with some indian lady. she's despicable. equations are easyyy. P.3: art with the baat po. i hate her. Lunch: not fun. farrout. in the hall~ practicing for choir...but after wards was fun. NEO JEONG MAN MYSTERY MYSTERY. EVERYDAY I SHOCK! (SHOCK) EVERY NIGHT I SHOCK! (SHOCK) Assembly: urgh. embarrassing ==" ms economy's stuffed up speech (Y) P.4: another baat por. but this one's a sei baat por. after school: deal with darren. sorry ness.not gonna tell you what it was (: home: urgh.piano practice was FAIL. meh. so...that's my day (:

ANNOYING LIFE. I was in quite a good mood this morning...i was happy to be able to see a certain someone for 2hrs. i was happy to be around friends. bible study was fun too. even the afternoon was awesomee. yumcha, fbing,msning. BUT... during piano lessons, the teacher angry at me for not practicing when i had already tried my best. my mum started saying things that i don't like to hear. and my dad lectured me. that really turned my mood off. during the WHOLE car trip i was staring out th window thinking and feeling sad. i really wanted to back-chat to them, but i knew i couldn't. so i was just ignoring it...i was thinking to myself: why do my parents have to set high standards for me? why do they think i can't do things when i can if i try. why do they keep pressuring me? they just don't know that the more pressure they put on me, the earlier i will give up something. even if it's something i like to do. i think being around friends is the happiest moment fo...

I AM PISSED. i'm super pissed at my friend...cuz she made an event to be on the same day as my event was...i was like OMG. why the heck did she have to do that! just because she doesn't wanna go...doesn't mean she can do something that will upset me...but of course wouldn't tell her...i don't wanna lose an important friend. but still...I'M REALLY PISSED! obviously people would want to go to her event instead of mine...but...who cares. if nobody wants to go...i'll go by myself. D< why do people in this world like to piss me off so much...am i THAT vulnerable? have they never thought that it would hurt my feelings? just because i care about my friends, it doesn't mean you can make me upset! or is it because you think that it won't hurt me to do something i think will hurt my feelings. IS THIS WHAT A TRUE FRIEND IS? I REALLY HOPE THEY DON'T THINK THAT. because it isn't. at least i have true friends. but to me, all my friends are SUPER ...

Bludgy Day i had quite a bludged day @ school todays (: i think i'll write tomorrow...cbb todays (:

HBBD JESS! (happy belated bday) so my day wasn't too bad~ just that i feel like i should act more like myself in front of people. in front of them...i act like i can handle things, and really strong, but at heart, i'm not like that...i cry for the slightest things like getting lectured by my parents. I guess it is hard to do that cuz a normal human would act differently around people that when they are alone (: My life is quite stuffed up nowadays, though it was before. I need a place where i can be alone, a place where i can be myself, do anything i want. i just want freedom.free myself from my parents and all my problems. just relax and do all the things i want to do. who knows...maybe it will happen (: I've gotten over him slightly (: but i guess i can't let go yet. if you know me and think that i'm not going through any pain, then you're wrong. there's something in this world called putting on an act and that's what i'm doing. life is un...

 IN DE RIBARY/PARK. (I CAN SPELL BUT THIS IS ASIAN) today...after school...as usual~ i went to the library~ we played chubby bunny XD hahah~ sucked in boys. you can't beat me~ i got 17 (: then~ because we were too noisy...we were told by the librarian to play somewhere else...so we went to the park (: in the park...i took stalker photos...and played basnetball~ LOLS people like to bully disabled people...I'M DISABLED. nahh~ just a strained muscle ==" waiting for the equipment...then most people went home... brownie,ness and me took photos... @ around 5:18...i went back to get my bag...and almost ran to tutoring... tutoring was gay. anyways~ going home...i got texts from adam...saying~ cmon...isn't there a better answer... hahahs! sucked in. mandy most likely doesn't like you. ASK FOR YOURSELF. even if you get a NO you can still be friends with her ==" LIFE OF LOVE. slowly...i mean slowly...getting used to the feeling of letting go of him. no cha...

MY LEG HURTS. what a day...limping around...==" i feel so useless...can't do anything on my own... been depending on people because my leg is hurts...meh~ anyways~ just wanna say... ADAM ZONG IS A NOOB. jksjks life is kinda gay. i'm still thinking of him from time to time... it just seems like i still slowly not liking him as much now...it's kinda lonely though...but that's life for you! i just don't have the courage to get a straight NO if i confessed...so no way i'm confessing (: blab time: MY LEG HURTS LIKE HELL. MUFTI DAY! WOOHOO! THE LIBRARY IS FUN. I DUNNO WHY I LIKE GOING TO SCHOOL... I'M BORED. MY FAMILY IS ANNOYING. I HATE BEING ORDERED AROUND SO DON'T DO IT. LIFE ISN'T EASY. ENJOY IT WHILE YOU CAN (:

bleh~ MY DAY WAS...crazyy  Period 1: strained my muscle...to the sick bay! Period 2: walked back to geo...up the stairs with my dead leg. Period 3: edward scissorhands. BORING. ==" Period 4: classroom downstairs...THANK GOODNESS. but...==" After School: to the library i go :) i feel sorry for jess :( she had to walk super slowly to get there...got there @ around 3:45..40 mins ==" farrout... At library: was awesomee. people helped me move around...i insisted on being independent :) After Library: ok...it took me 1/2 hr to walk to the station...THEN. i was waiting for the train...and someone splashed water on me...FARROUT. Walking home: i was walking towards the direction of my church...i was quite lucky tomeet someone from my church that i know ;) and then someone drove me home...got home at like 6:15 Home: when i got home, my mum was questioning me...ANNOYING. NOW: multitasking..

FANNY-TI? nah~ TIFFANYY i need to learn to blab more. i hope i an figure it out myself...but yehh...i'll get over it..someday maybe then i can act normal in front of him and we can still be friend :) when your pimples die down...it don't really notice pimples on your face...LOLS time to blab. MY SISTER IS AN ASS. MY BROTHER HAS DREAMS ABOUT SUPERHEROES. I'M GAY. NOT THE HOMOSEXUAL WAY. MY FRIENDS ARE AWESOMEE. <33 ILY TIFF! <333333

TO:TIFF ILY <3 as long as we are there for each other and God is there for us :) I like the romance part of shoujo manga too, but sometimes, i don't really like the ending :) and yes, your dedi was sad, but at the same time it cheered me up ;) alright on the outside...our hearts will recover soon! and we'll do it together! ILY!!!!!!!! <3333333333333333

ok..i'm diabetic...but i ate marshmallows... chubby bunny is the awesomeemest game EVER! stuffing marshmallows ;) got 16 in my mouth need to have a rematch with angela! hahahs. beverley fails.

I have no idea why, but there are times when i just wanna hide under my blanket and cry...there's no reason to it...just wanna cry... Feeling lonely...it's a feeling when you find yourself in a world, where nobody's there. It's a time when you want to find someone to talk to, to tell them all your feelings. "I am exhausted by sorrow, and weeping has shortened my life. I am weak from my troubles; even my bones are wasting away." Psalm 31:10 (Good News Bible) That is how I feel... but I know, that God is always there with me when i'm lonely. As it says, " And I will ask the father, and he will give you another Counsellor to be with you forever-the Spirit of Truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you" John 14:16-17 (NIV) A quick shout out to Tiffany for giving me advice (:

My life is a total mess. i seriously need to fix it up. doing assignments in the last minute is not good. studying for tests on the day we have it is not good. not doing homework isn't supposed to be done. My friends...i should be more considerate of them. i should be doing so much more that i'm not doing now for them. My family...i should be helping them out a lot more in the house. i should be listening to my dad and clean up my super messy room. i should be doing sooo much...but i'm not doing it. God, i pray that you will help me fix myself up and i pray that you will change my heart. Amen.