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why am i ALWAYS the one getting the blame. D:
-getting the blame when it's my sister's fault. yet i can't fight back.
-getting the blame when it isn't even my problem.
-getting the blame ALL THE TIME.
D:
i don't get it. WHYYYYY?!
today i got the blame for making my friend deactivate fb. okay. i admit. i uploaded a photo of her. BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN IT'S MY FAULT! YOU DON'T HAVE TO HURT ME LIKE THAT. do i seem like a person who has strong heart? you really think some words won't hurt me deeply. you really think saying those words won't make me cry. well then you're wrong. just because you said that, i cried. i'm not strong. you can cut me deeply just bying saying words you don't even mean. my heart isn't strong. inside. i'm very weak. but in front of you. it seems like i'm very strong. and won't care what you say to me. but you're all wrong. you don't know the real me.the me who is weak and dependent. i need someone beside me. to guide me. yet i have nobody. for saying those words. you've cut me deeply. you've made me cry. i refuse to smile now. i don't want show a fake smile to you. especially when i've been cut so deep. these small harmless words can make me really sad. i'm a weak person. don't blame me for everything. i don't like it. i don't think you would if it was done to you either. now i feel even weaker.
fake smile on the outside. broken heart on the inside. i seem strong. and i seem like i don't care what is said to me. but i'm weak. and i care. it can cut me really deep. like you've done so today. i cried because of you. stop blaming me. i'll really stop smiling.

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