I once was lost but now I'm found

it's term 3 holidays already. WOW. in about 3months, i will have finished yr 9 and ready to move onto yr 10. i still can't believe i'm in high school. it feels like yesterday, that i was still playing handball in primary. WOW. i'm so grateful to have met so many awesome people this year~ KPFMA(especially jake umma), david&elaine, helena, monica, marianna. God has blessed me with so many great people, even though i'm so unworthy of his grace. God, Your are so amazing

so sick of maths. frkn hell. ahd ti do two chapters for hw ==" and i also had a maths test at tutor. SO SICK OF ITTTT.

I AM SO DAMN PISSED. FRKNNHELL. GO AHEAD. DO IT. GO AND TELL THEM I DON'T WANT TO FRKN LEARN PIANO ANYMORE. BECAUSE I NEVER WANTED TO IN THE BEGINNING. YOU WERE THE ONES WHO FORCED ME TO DO IT. AND NOW I'M DOING IT FOR YOU. AND ALL YOU CAN FRKN SAY IS I'M WASTING YOUR MONEY. I WOULD PRACTICE ON MY OWN FREE WILL IF YOU DON'T NAG ME AS SOON AS I COME HOME AND WHEN I'VE HAD A HELL OF A DAY AND I'M TIRED. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I FRKN GO THROUGH AND YOU FRKN SHOUT AT ME FOR NOT BEING A GOOD CHILD. DON'T EVEN TRY TO THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING I'M THINKING. BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ME CRYING SECRETLY. YOU THINK ALL I EVER DO IS STAY IN MY ROOM TO GO ON THE NET. YOU'RE FRKN WRONG. MY ROOM IS THE ONLY FRKN ROOM WHERE I CAN FIND MY OWN COMFORT. WHERE I CAN LET OUT EMOTIONS FREELY WITHOUT YOU KNOWING. I AM SO DAMN ANGRY.

i swear. all this shouting at home is the cause of my deaf ears. vnfejkvnuofd. when the heack will my sister grow up and stop annoying people. fdsofnoke. when the heck will my mum stop shouting. dnfjslnljfnkedlnefdkllfnerofkn. my ears are dying T-T

molly is leaving the school, her last words to me were. 'don't touch me' her last expression to me was a scowl. did she really hate me that much? i was just trying to be friendly. this one year of friendship. it all ended with pain. last week, we were getting along fine. now she absolutely hates me. i really don't understand her. was i really not a good friend? did she really not treasure our friendship? i really regret everything. now all i can really do is look at our old images and reminisce. 'ajigoo' why keep that name when you no longer like us. when you suddenly neglects us. those last words. 'don't touch me' that hurt. the flashbacks of when we first met. the flashbacks of when we got along fine. our memories. it doesn't even seem like you treasure them. one fight. completely broke our friendship. i'll miss you. but i'm not allowed to tell anyone. i can't show concern for you. not when all you did was scowl and push me away. ...

eomma. a song that brought to tears even if i don't understand. it's beautiful. when i heard this song, i thought about all the things i've done with my family. happy, and sad. eomma. appa. jeongmal mianhae. for being a bad child. i know i don't do much at home. i know i don't please you much. mianhae. The first time I met you Cried right away How he did it with joy Sad how he did it I do not even remember Because he had to give Just keep taking haeteotjyo And you did not know back then to appreciate Knows nothing made it alive I call her name My heart hurts you so long I can not give up everything more To miss you, I can not tell what My Mother Mother Oh why does it seem the tears The most precious beautiful than anyone else You, my, my mother Hostile takeovers should know better now I know Woosyeotjyo dying for me a lot Lois, what was then How many times did it I do not even remember Do not too impressed with my little gift You told...

i reached the 200 posts mark! YAY! now let's aim for 300 ;) hehe~ i feel so accomplished today~ i reached 200 blog posts, and i went exercising :D YAY :D i feel happy today :D WOOHOO :D

i read something so discouraging. it hurt. people really do think i'm not a good friend. people really do hate me. she. thinks i'm not a good friend. she. thinks i'm jot a good Christian. ouch.

umma, you've finally voiced out your opinion. yiu've finally told kpfma to stop being childish. komawo yo umma~

my sleeping pattern is stuffed up again...for some reason i can't sleep tonight. idky. i have nothing to stress about :/ noone's given me trouble to think about... oh well. --- "what if your blessings come through raindrops, what if your healing come through tears and what if a thousand sleepness nights are what it takes to know You're near. what if trials of this life... are Your mercies in disguise" -Blessings, Laura Story. this song is absolutely beautiful. this is the one song that helps me get back up after being knocked down. i love it~ God, i love you. You're absolutely amazing. i know, you're putting me through these trials for a reason right? i really thank you though, even though these few days haven't been the best, you gave me a group of loving friends/sisters/brothers to cheer me on, support me. as the song says, "what if trials of this life are your mercies in disguise" I believe in one, all-loving, amazing, won...

"somebody take me away. cuz i can't take this pain." ukiss seriously. someone just take me away. i can't take the pain. constantly getting hurt, constantly being shouted at, constantly being looked down upon. i can't take it anymore. somebody take me away. cuz i can't take this pain.

tuesday: finds out that he's dating my close siater. wednesday: shouted at. lectured. bitched about. failed exam. fell asleep doing histo. thursday: not too bad. don't want to talk to anyone now. i'm tired. gnight