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I AM SO DAMN PISSED. FRKNNHELL. GO AHEAD. DO IT. GO AND TELL THEM I DON'T WANT TO FRKN LEARN PIANO ANYMORE. BECAUSE I NEVER WANTED TO IN THE BEGINNING. YOU WERE THE ONES WHO FORCED ME TO DO IT. AND NOW I'M DOING IT FOR YOU. AND ALL YOU CAN FRKN SAY IS I'M WASTING YOUR MONEY. I WOULD PRACTICE ON MY OWN FREE WILL IF YOU DON'T NAG ME AS SOON AS I COME HOME AND WHEN I'VE HAD A HELL OF A DAY AND I'M TIRED. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I FRKN GO THROUGH AND YOU FRKN SHOUT AT ME FOR NOT BEING A GOOD CHILD. DON'T EVEN TRY TO THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING I'M THINKING. BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ME CRYING SECRETLY. YOU THINK ALL I EVER DO IS STAY IN MY ROOM TO GO ON THE NET. YOU'RE FRKN WRONG. MY ROOM IS THE ONLY FRKN ROOM WHERE I CAN FIND MY OWN COMFORT. WHERE I CAN LET OUT EMOTIONS FREELY WITHOUT YOU KNOWING. I AM SO DAMN ANGRY.

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