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And this is where I blurt thoughts and don't act.

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By Annie
So, I've spent the past week or two or even three with B on my mind a lot. No kidding. He'd randomly appear in my mind and I either end up smiling because it brought me joy or I'd end up missing him a lot. This isn't healthy. NO, stop it.

I've come to a point where I just want to forget these feelings because:
1. I want to focus on my relationship with God and don't want these feelings become a stumbling block if it isn't already.
2.  It's going nowhere, and most likely won't go anywhere because I don't plan on pursuing. (Not to mention, he doesn't like me/only sees me as a younger sister to take care of.)

But, at the same time I don't want to because even though I know it won't go anywhere (no, I'm not going to hope that it will), I do have feelings for him that have grown a lot since I first liked him. (c'mon, it's been 2 years) It'll be difficult to let go of these feelings when I see him so often.

What should I do Daddy?

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