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Finally admitting to one of my insecurities.

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By Annie
I've stopped resenting my lack of children for a long time now, but it still causes me a lot of insecurity. So, one of the things I want in life is to get married eventually, but my lack of children makes me believe that it'll never happen. No man wants to put up with a woman who can't have kids.

You see, one of the reasons why I hate the pain so much is because it's become a constant reminder that I can't have children. It's not just because I feel hopeless when it comes to knowing what the problem is, but because it reminds me of my inabilities. It reminds me of how disappointed my parents are of me. It reminds me of how disappointed I am in myself. Even though it was beyond my control that this had happened, I can't help but feel inadequate.

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