I once was lost but now I'm found

  I am always desperately trying to control the things I can’t control. How do I pick the easiest way out, the job with the highest possibility of success? Yet there has never been a guarantee, and frankly I cannot control that. Why do I not just trust God? Why am I so anxious, always seeking control when I know that there is one in control whose knowledge surpasses the present. Abraham didn’t waver in unbelief in the promises of God even when all the circumstances were pointing to failure, impossibility. So why do I not just let God work it all out? Will I ever find peace?  

  There is this creeping uncomfortable feeling in my chest. It makes me uneasy, scared even. It comes with a fuzzy sensation in my head, like a millions thoughts running, zipping like ants in their maze of an anthill. That confusion you feel looking at a map of Tokyo’s subway system. It puts my body into overdrive, my heart racing, my breathing shallow, my head pounding. I am afraid. I cannot think clearly. Just breathe. For goodness sakes breathe. In through your nose, out through your mouth. Slow deep breaths. You don’t need to feel anxious, your father in heaven has got you. He will never forsake you. You are his beloved child, the one he sent His son down to die for. Breathe, he cares for you. You are not alone, you don’t need to be afraid. I know you’re exhausted, but you don’t need to keep running. God will carry you through the storm, he will give you peace. Trust him!