I once was lost but now I'm found

you know what i hate? people who say that"it's okay" when clearly it isn't. so why can't they just say it isn't okay. for example, when i say i'm not gonna do something, or i can stay for something, and the other person says it's okay. i know that it's not okay you know? i'm not that naive to not understand. because it's not okay for me either if you do that. another thing that i hate is when people act really sad to make people want to feel sorry for them. especially in a fight between friends. when people start to cry and do all this shit and start to complain that what we did was wrong, and what they did was right, it pisses me off. especially if the intention is to get more people to stand on your side. seriously. it's unfair. well. enough ranting today. (:

well. it's my birthday today. and it was really awesome cuz it is also my baptism :P so, first i went to church XD THAT WAS AWESOME :D hehe. my friends were like: "which guy do you like, is it the one in red" and i'm just like...where'd you get that idea from...of course not. and then i had to tell them which one it was ==" LOLOL bev asked the same thing when she came to my church :L hmm. after church&baptism, we hung around and then went to yumcha. YUMCHAAAAAAAAAAA .> HAPPY EASTERRRR! (: >

annyeong :D hehe. i had a pretty awesome day today ;) i spent most of my day in church, and it was pretty cool :P for starters, i learnt more things about david (: and then during lunch time, i brought up abckids and we started to talk about old tv shows and kids shows. like bananas in pjs, teletubbies. :L and then we were taing about books. harry potter :L i can't believe johnny actually read the WHOLE series :L then after lunch, we talked about where we should go for an outing on monday :P it was pretty funn. i talked to johnny for quite a while. we were having open discussion, and it was really cool. longest convo i had ever had with johnny (Y) i'm pretty happy :D then, we all moved to the big hall for music practice. everyone else was playing cards. while music team was practicing. i was obviously practicing, but it was pretty awesomeeeee :D silas teaching me to sing higher and louder. :D everytime he's like: open your mouth wider! hehe. i really stuffed up love i...

lately, i get annoyed pretty easily. especially because my sister is being a bitch and my brother is being a brat. wth is suddenly coming home and then acting all baby like. wth is coming home and judging me. accusing me. doing shit to me. if you really think i don't get angry from this, or i'm not frustrated, or that i can tolerate this. let me tell you one thing. I CAN'T. it pisses me off just as much as it would piss someone else off. i really don't like to live here. every single day that i stay here makes me ever more annoyed. i don't want to toleratethe annoyingness of siblings and parents. ):

if only... if only i don't get pissed so easily. if only my attitude would change. if only i had a not as annoying family. if only my life wasn't so boring. if only my mood would lighten up more. if only people cared. if only people knew. if only i thought and acted differently. then i'd be more worthy of God. if only... i had people to talk to about my problems. if only someone is willing to listen. oh wait.. i have God. off to talk to God now. byebye (: > a servant of God posted this on 2 April 2011.

my parents are fighting again. i don't like it. they fight over the stupidest things! and every single time they do that, i drain myself with music. but not this time ): my earphones aren't working fully, so i can't listen ): the sounds of my parents fighting are so scary. it makes me want to cry. i hate it when they fight. it makes me angry. sad. depressed. i need peace and quiet in my house. i don't like it when my sister shouts.I don't like it if i get annoyed. i absolutely hate it when my parents shout. i'm scared. i hate this. on the contrary. i'm getting baptised next monthhh!!! :D God is amazinggg~ he's indescribable. God is love. God is everything. God gave me evrything i have. i love God.

so i was in hospital like...a week ago >< it was soooooooo boringgg! >< moving on. he's been sick. i hope he gets well soon >< OMG. TSUNAMI/EARTHQUAKE JAPAN. and other countries soon. >< ><