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well since it's the 26th, i can finally say i'm going to china today :L and i know i should be asleep cuz i have to get up at 6 for my flight. but who cares. i can't sleep. i bet the boys are already asleep. same with crystal. you know what really ticks me off about this trip...? the fact that i'm going with super annoying people in which i get along with when they're not insulting my sister. seriously. they keep insultimg my sis about her developmental disorder. it's gone on for years and they still don't get tired of it. and everytime they insult my sis, i get pissed. and it's not a nice sight to see me pissed.
yiu know what else ticks me off? the fact that i won't get any privacy during this trip unless i hide in the bathroom. and also, i can't go to silas or allison when i feel down. and i can't reach any of my awesome friends.
aishh. sometimes i hate going to china. no fb, no yt. i will die. i hope i still have blogger and aff.

i should really sleep now. but i can't sleep >.> anyway. people wjo i'll be leaving in aus, have fun during the rest of your holidays! <3 you all.

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