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tears.

have you ever had the feeling of being on the verge of tears yet they never roll out? it's been like this for me the whole week. i really cant stand that feeling, it's like being on the verge of sneezing but it never comes out. it irritates me. i've been wanting to cry the whole week. i don't know why. it's just that the tears that want to come out just isn't willing. i need to cry. i need to relieve some stress. i want a shoulder to cry on. i don't wanna fake it anymore. but i can't let my friends see me with a sad face all the time. i don't want my friends to worry. tears. they need to come out once in a while. tears.

pissed?

i came home from school really pissed today. i guess it's just PMS...but i'm feeling really really annoyed right now. to be honest...i don't really have the right to be annoyed at anyone at the moment. so i'm annoyed at myself. i've really stuffed up this time. i really really really want to throw something at the moment. i really really really want to shout, yell, let out all my anger. i've lost my mind. i blamed it on people, when it was my fault. i made people feel upset. it started cuz of me. it should end cuz of me. i'd rather hurt myself than hurt the people around me. i feel so pathetic.  我好可惡哦. 難怪我身邊的人一個一個離開我.感覺好似沒人知道我心想什麼.也沒人肯聽.

losing my mind.

i swore for the first time in a while. i've completely lost it. can't take it anymore. 我好鬼死煩啊! 我地想道歉不過你又不理我地.有時我真係忍不落去啦. 在係敢我就會忍不住罵死你.忍不住打你一把.啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!好煩啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!下星期我仲要做手術咖! 你在係敢我受太多刺激就要早點進院啦. 好煩啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ultimate goal.

my ultimate goal this year is to build up my relationship with God cuz my relationship with Him has a big boulder of stress in between it. and i've been shutting Him out. goal no. 2: HOMEWORKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. ==" goal no.3: STOP THINKING ABOUT USELESS THINGS. ><" i realise i think about things too much. and that makes me stressed. =="

那我呢?

你有沒有想過你這樣對我生氣我會好傷心的啊? 你有沒有想過我的感受? 你知不知你這樣做只會加重我嗰負擔咖? 你知不知我宜家有幾傷心? 我已經夠多椰想啦. 你可以原諒其他人. 那我呢? 我已經想盡辦法要你不生氣, 不過你個態度令我無法可以原諒你. 你根本就不在乎我. 我說的對不對? 那我呢?