have you ever had the feeling of being on the verge of tears yet they never roll out? it's been like this for me the whole week. i really cant stand that feeling, it's like being on the verge of sneezing but it never comes out. it irritates me. i've been wanting to cry the whole week. i don't know why. it's just that the tears that want to come out just isn't willing. i need to cry. i need to relieve some stress. i want a shoulder to cry on. i don't wanna fake it anymore. but i can't let my friends see me with a sad face all the time. i don't want my friends to worry. tears. they need to come out once in a while. tears.
Huh, it's been quite a while since I've posted here. Trials are creeping closer and closer, and you can't say I'm not stressed. But at the same time I haven't been the most productive person...in fact, I must say I'm very lazy. Less than 2 weeks til trials and I'm sitting here writing a blog. Here's how I've been going. All the drama's died down since last time, thankfully. I'm learning to let it go and not let it bother me as much. At the moment it seems that my parents are keeping a close watch on my sister, and God willing, it won't happen again. In terms of Barney, I can't say I don't have feelings towards him anymore, but it has been better. I guess I'm able to be comfortable around him again. My pain has returned, but what can I do. My menstrual cycle is currently terrible- I think I've bled for almost a month now. The pain is as usual, a pain- especially to manage because my meds haven't been of use lately....
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