I once was lost but now I'm found

i got scolded by my piano teacher today...AGAIN :/ so my parents gave me something to think about. do i want to continue piano or not? honestly, i want to. but i don't have the motivation to practice. i honestly don't know what to do. so prayer point for today: motivation to practice piano. second thing, i realised how messed up my life is. :/ so second prayer point: guide me to fix up my life and follow God's ways. i'm going to be thining a lot this week about my problems. whether it be social problems, physical problems, emotional problems. all these sorts of things will be sorted out by the end of this week. i'm going to start with social. well, for starters, my friends aren't really on good terms. espesh, jess and molly. and as someone stuck in between, i need to find a way to help them. so prayer point 3: give me the wisdom to speak to both molly and jess, so that i will hopefully talk some sense into them. another thing is me and bev...i tell her ...

it was our last yr 9 lesson at tipps yesterday. next week, we're all in a different class. i'll miss them :/ esp. david ): i don't know when the next time i see him will be > oh wells. i'm sure he'll do well in his new class ^^ same with all the others~ they're such a fun bunch, i wish i was in their class again ): bye everyonee

i'm sorry God. for all the faults i have. for disappointing you. for my shameful acts that DO NOT reflect my worship towards you. whatever i have done. i'm sorry. idky. but i've been feeling a bit insecure...who's gonna take me down. who's gonna help me up. i'm so scared that i will walkk the wrong path > Guide me God, to be who you want me to be. to follow your path. "sometimes i don't want to tell people i'm Christian, but rather i want my actions to show that i am Christian".

i went to k today! with my wonderful eomma and wonderful friends~ seriously. they are wonderfullll. eomma got me the fiction and fact limited edition albummmmmm. WAHHHHH. and doojoon poster XD i went crazy XD eomma, saranghaeyo! the card eomma gave me was funny :L cuz he drew b2st on it XD doojoon oppa saranghae~ oh yeh! it's taeminnie's bday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! you're legal now. hahaha. no longer little taemin~ i will rise, when He calls my name~ God is amazing. i was walking home today, and almost lost my poster and doojoon thing. and God helped me find it. and when it was about to rain, i prayed for it to not rain until i got home, and it didn't. I LOVE YOU GOD! that's all today~ till next time! ^^

i couldn 't think of a title today :L so i did something random ^^ well, technically, i'm supposed to say yesterday, but whatever. i went to burwood todays~ got ditched D: oh well. I HAD HEAPS OF FUN AT CINDY'S PLACE :D failing at mariokart :L but winning that dancing game :P i miss my friends~ especially bevv i dunno why, but i've had a headache all night :/ and it's killkng me D: my head feels like it's gonna explode. but i'm still writing this blog (: seriously, it's really painful. ouch. i don't have much to say today :/ so i'll end it at that. gnight~ ARGHH. MY HEAD D:

i was reading facts about doojoon today. one of the facts was that his fave phrase is i babo, you babo, everybody babo. in other words, i'm an idion, you're an idiot, everyone's an idiot :L haha. he's so adorable haha. it's late, good night ^^

rawr. i'm back XD starting to get back into my blogging routine :L anyway. today i had quite an interesting day, despite the fact thatni had tutoring first thing in the morning ==" maths at 9am isn't very nice. but afterwards, I WENT TO KOORONG! :D didn't get enough time tk pick a book...considering i take ages to pick good books :L so i bought bible tabs. i have to, cuz i can NEVER remember where each book in the bible is :L afterwards, i went to church with church friends, so many i don't wanna list them. :L anyway, at church, silas to me and 'him' to go get some stuff from the store. -insert heartbeat noises- gosh was i nervous :L enjoyed his presence though, even though the trip to the store was awkward :L his presence makes me feel so safe ;) dinner was pizza. omnomnom pizza silas got pissed at us :/ for a while... but when actual music practice started, it was fun ^^ learnt a new song. IT'S SO HARDDDDDD. but it's pretty. oh yeh, BARN...

awesome talk today~ megaphone of hope. louie giglio really knows how to make me think carefully about my walk with God. am i doing what's right? am i travelling down the right path? is my Christian way of life the correct way? do i really believe in Jesus? am i really a believer of Christ? have i impacted people's lives with my testimony. will it impact people's lives? so many questions i ask myself, and i think, am i lying to myself? am i really a True Christian. The cross, when i am suffering, do i run towards it, or do i turn away from it? hmm. i wonder :/ "You ate not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body" -1 Corinthians 6:19-20 Am i really Glorifying God through my life? i need to think carefully about my faith.

KPFMA has utterly disappointed me. honestly, i've done all i cam to stop the arguing, BUT NO. NOONE LISTENS. did you know that when members start fighting, people get hurt. the people who are avoiding tne situation or trying to make it better GET SO FRKN HURT. what is this? honestly. what happened to our happy family? STUPID DAMN NEW MEMBERS STUFFING EVERYTHING UP. ay. we have 667 members. WHO GIVES, WHEN THESE FRKN NEW MEMBERS STUFF UP OUR FAMILY BY CREATING UNNECESSARY FIGHTS. LIKE WTF. i am so pissed and disappointed it's not even funny. URGH. do younknow how frkn hard we older members, and our admins work to keep this group in order. ESP LUCY, UMMA AND APPA. seriously. appa, our original creator already stepped down as admin. and it's all because of you guys. FARROUT. if you're gonna keep doing things to piss us off. LEAVE. my family is not one where you can play around with. kpfma. you have disappointed me. yet i'm not going to say anything directly to you bec...

muahahahahahaha. was sorting out song leading and my performance for music team with silas today~ it was interestinggg :D despite the fact that i waited out in the cold for an hr beofre i went to his place :L i learnt quite a lot today~ and HOORAY. i have a written structure of my performance on paper :P now i need to practice practice practice (: enough of that. i need to practice piano nows~ byebye (: "Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity." -2 Timothy 4:12

wow. it's been a while. honestly, i think it's good that i don't blog, since whenever i do, i'm pissed :L well. i'm not in THAT bad of a mood today :D my holidays are soooooo peaceful :P well, at least more peaceful than other times :L for starters. i'm sick :/ NOT GOOD. been coughing all day~ anyway, since i haven't been blogging, i tend to read through my old posts :L and i realise, last year (2010) i must have been really..............i don't know how to say it :L ...depressed i guess? haha. or pissed at heaps of things. i can't even count how many posts i have posted about being pissed over this, getting over someone, pissed at this person. THERE WAS HEAPSSSSSS. people tend to ask, how are you? and i reply a...hmm. not that bad. i sometimes wonder...is that sincere? :/ anyway. moving on. jess+molly? still pissed at each other. SERIOUSLY GIRLS. WHAT IS THERE TO BE PISSED AT. i was reading the fanfic jess and tiff wrote. 'The Lee famil...