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i kinda feel very distant from everyone now. 
my best friend; it feels like she's abandoning me. it's like she's not my best friend anymore. i can't articulate her feelings. i can't tell what she's thinking. she feels very distant. i can't tell her about my problems anymore. i can't even get close to her, talk to her like i used to. she's changed, and i don't know whether it's good or bad. but either way, i love her.

then there's another girl.
i don't know what i did, but it's like she doesn't want to talk to me. she's avoiding me. i might've offended her unknowingly. but i don't know. i could never tell what she's thinking.
is she mad? i don't know.
all i know is that she's stopped talking to me as much.
i miss her cheerful self.
i miss the her who used to tease me.
i miss her.

i'm really scared. what if i haven't been a great friend? what if these friendships have turned to dust?
i can't talk to people like i used to.
everything is changing too fast.
i miss the old times.

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