I'm a people pleaser. I think it's unnessecary to defy authority, I have high expectations of myself because it makes my parents happy when I do well. I will agree to anything you say. I will say yes to anything. I won't defy orders. I aspired to become a doctor because it made my parents happy. I will do anything to make you happy, even if it causes my misery. I will put on a mask so you don't see my weakness.
And because of that, you don't know me. What you see from me is called a nice person, to me it's a weakness. How I wish to not be a people pleaser, but someone who pleases God.
Do I want approval of man or approval of God?
Huh, it's been quite a while since I've posted here. Trials are creeping closer and closer, and you can't say I'm not stressed. But at the same time I haven't been the most productive person...in fact, I must say I'm very lazy. Less than 2 weeks til trials and I'm sitting here writing a blog. Here's how I've been going. All the drama's died down since last time, thankfully. I'm learning to let it go and not let it bother me as much. At the moment it seems that my parents are keeping a close watch on my sister, and God willing, it won't happen again. In terms of Barney, I can't say I don't have feelings towards him anymore, but it has been better. I guess I'm able to be comfortable around him again. My pain has returned, but what can I do. My menstrual cycle is currently terrible- I think I've bled for almost a month now. The pain is as usual, a pain- especially to manage because my meds haven't been of use lately....
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