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I don't feel comfortable being at home. At home, I feel like I'm being constantly judged by the way I do things/handle things. My sister is constantly staring at me, as if she's trying to find faults in me (in which she continuously complains about them to my parents right in front of me.) My parents have so many expectations of me- when I'm home I feel that they pressure me to do well, even if they aren't actually saying it.
Dad and my sister are always shouting/arguing. My mum is always shouting at my brother to do his homework. My brother is always refusing, only causing more shouting. My mum complains that I don't know things just because I can't explain it. Dad is complaining about mum because she is apparently not taking care of the house properly. 
I just feel really uncomfortable at home- and this shouldn't be how it is. How can I not be comfortable in my own home? 
I can't handle all the complaining, all the shouting...and this is where I forget what I was going to write because I was on the phone with Christine for 2 hours.

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