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Battles within the heart

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By Annie

God, should I not be placing my identity in you?
So then, what is stopping me?  Your grace is sufficient, yet why do I feel so inadequate?
"I am the bread of life" you say, and yet I feel so unsatisfied- still seeking earthly pleasures rather than the treasures of heaven.
Who am I that I may receive your grace? Nobody.
What do I gain from seeking earthly pleasures such as human relationships and acknowledgement of my abilities?
Nothing.

I know, yet I don't do. I understand, yet I don't understand. I see, yet I don't believe.

Why have you taken my ability to bear children away? What shall come of this? My inadequacy stems from the fact that this has been taken away. Yet this was how you created me.

Fix your identity on Jesus- the one who saved you, even in your brokenness, even in your sin. The one broke the chains of sim and death, and gave you an eternity with Him. The one who restored you into a relationship with Him, and  made you perfect in His sight.
Seek the things above, for things of this earth are fleeting and will pass away.

I need you Jesus, to be the Lord of my life. To take away these feelings of inadequacy, and fix my eyes on you. To teach me day by day to live according to God's will.

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