Well, another year is drawing to close, with the new year closer than I'd like. I guess this is the time to re-cap like I do every year.
Let's talk about the bad things first:
There was so much pain this year, more than I expected. I really hoped that the doctors would find a cause for the pain, but still nope. And honestly, I'm really starting to lose hope. 2 years of prayer, and yet God hasn't given me a treatment answer. But I know that God knows what it is, and perhaps it isn't time to reveal it.
Many things happened that caused a lot of emotional pain; a discussion of divorce from my parents, many arguments, harsh remarks, undecided decisions regarding feelings, stress as the HSC year begins/began.
But all in all, despite the amount of pain, despite the breakdowns, despite the tears, I'm thankful. I'm thankful that God has kept me in Him throughout the year, that through all the pain, I know I've grown and matured in Christ. I know that I've grown to be more appreciative of God's love, God's saving grace, His saving grave, His faithfulness. God has taught me that I can rely on Him, that I have an everlasting hope in Jesus. In all my pain and suffering, God has kept me rooted in Him, reassuring me of His promises.
Another thing I'm very thankful for this year is Christine. (And yes, I know you'll be reading this eventually) No words can express how happy I am that you found Jesus this year, that God chose you to be His child, that you accepted His amazing grace. I'm very thankful that God has placed you in my life as such a wonderful sister in Christ. It's funny things turn out, hey? I really wouldn't have thought it'd take less than a year for us to become such close friends, but I'm glad we have.
I still remember how excited I was when you told me that you felt you had already put your faith in God, and I pray that you faith grows stronger as you continue to discover more about God! Hehe, love you! <3
Let's talk about the bad things first:
There was so much pain this year, more than I expected. I really hoped that the doctors would find a cause for the pain, but still nope. And honestly, I'm really starting to lose hope. 2 years of prayer, and yet God hasn't given me a treatment answer. But I know that God knows what it is, and perhaps it isn't time to reveal it.
Many things happened that caused a lot of emotional pain; a discussion of divorce from my parents, many arguments, harsh remarks, undecided decisions regarding feelings, stress as the HSC year begins/began.
But all in all, despite the amount of pain, despite the breakdowns, despite the tears, I'm thankful. I'm thankful that God has kept me in Him throughout the year, that through all the pain, I know I've grown and matured in Christ. I know that I've grown to be more appreciative of God's love, God's saving grace, His saving grave, His faithfulness. God has taught me that I can rely on Him, that I have an everlasting hope in Jesus. In all my pain and suffering, God has kept me rooted in Him, reassuring me of His promises.
Another thing I'm very thankful for this year is Christine. (And yes, I know you'll be reading this eventually) No words can express how happy I am that you found Jesus this year, that God chose you to be His child, that you accepted His amazing grace. I'm very thankful that God has placed you in my life as such a wonderful sister in Christ. It's funny things turn out, hey? I really wouldn't have thought it'd take less than a year for us to become such close friends, but I'm glad we have.
I still remember how excited I was when you told me that you felt you had already put your faith in God, and I pray that you faith grows stronger as you continue to discover more about God! Hehe, love you! <3
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